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Wednesday, May 26, 2010

New York, New York ain't she grand?

This is from my last trip to NYC back in August 2009

Who doesn't love Nick Littlemore?

This Man, Nick Littlemore is a musical genius and beautiful inside and out!

Vegas, fashion and a side of cake.....

beauty is only skin deep.........

I have some clearity. I hate pretty people! lol okay, j/k. well, Kind of.....I dislike people who lack substance! Thanks to some encourageing words from a friend I realize I may not be what society thinks is hot, but I don't lack substance. I have a personality! I'm not a mindless drone driven by vanity to be loved by all. I'm not saying I'm not vain or anything.....everyone is slightly vain to a point, just some more then others! Basicly, I'm becoming okay with the fact that I may only appeal to a small percent of people in the world and hey that's fine with me 'cause with me they're getting a real person. I have feelings and emotions, I tell jokes, I laugh, I cry, I feel pain and happiness......if this makes me an outcast so be it! I'm happier this way then trying to fit in some mold I thought society wanted me to fit into......infact it does want me to fit into a mold, but I won't go. Not anymore. Now I just have to find more people like me.

~Chris Peatrowsky

Where's my love? Where has it gone?

"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said 'Journeys end in lovers meeting.' What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said 'love is blind'. Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. It's called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms. I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade. "

- Nancy Myers

This world is fucked..........

In Martin Luther King Jr.'s essay " Letter from Birmingham Jail" he states that not doing anything to stop racism is just as bad as committing racism. I agree with this notion. I feel if we just look the other way when something wrong is happening then we might as well be involved in committing the wrongful act. Racism is a crippling disease that is spreading throughout the world. Hating someone who is different and wanting to eradicate them, is just a foolish means to an end of our humanity and society. When most cultures feel that they are the right race, the chosen race, the right religion and that they can be the only ones that should be in charge and to be the only ones to exist and then go to war over such a thought it's no wonder that there will always be war, everyone is trying to eradicate each other. As long as there is racism and intolerance there will be no peace. People choosing to kill and commit acts of hatred and violence in God's name instead of acts of understanding and love it's no wonder why there feels like a lack of God's presence in today's culture and today's world. If we could just accept everyone and put our hatred aside we'd be better off. However most people hide behind their faith and use that as an excuse to hate others who are different and may not worship their God. Doing such a thing is the path of a coward and it sullies God's name. This is why I feel that one day we will most likely destroy each other before we realize all of the wrong things we have committed. Because most people are ignorant and fear change. There is no right race, gender, sexuality or religion. The sooner we accept that the better things will get.
~Chris Peatrowsky